Sorry...

Well, I'm going to apologize right off the start. I have been so busy with stuff that I kept putting off the blog. Bad blogger!lol I will try and not dissapear like that again... And also, I'll apologize for the entry I'm about to write (I'm not in the best of moods).
As most of you may know, I'm deep into the planning of my September 27th wedding. I was just starting to feel confidant about everything too. I have the church, minister, photographer, reception, food, invites, dresses, flowers, etc all planned or reserved. My cake and DJ are both just about nailed down too. All the major stressors were pretty much out of the way(for now anyways :P) Until of course, I emailed the minister with a few little questions. That short little 3 line email has turned my whole wedding (and my world for the time being) into a stressed out mess!! The 1st question was fine; 3pm is a fine time for my wedding. Yay! now I can print my invites!! 2nd question okay; reading must be from the bible. Understandable, the wedding is being held at a church...sucks I can't use the reading I absolutly fell in love with...but theres always the reception. 3rd question is where my heart stoppped; apparently there are to be NO photos taken AT ALL during my ceremony!! My wedding cannot be captured for me to love and cherish the rest of my life!! What??!!! Back it up Reverend! No pictures at all?? Any of you who know me at all know what a big role photographs play in my life. Those who know me well understand how much they really mean to me, and how CRAZY this is making me!! I seriously started crying reading the email. This really is like the end of the world to me. And yes mom-it really IS a BIG DEAL! UGH!
Okay, okay. I've taken a few deep breaths and a nice big sip of my, ummm, coke and coke. I'm a bit calmer. But honestly, is this normal? My mom said it was like this at her wedding too. They just pose you after the fact, and photograph away. That doesn't make me feel the remotest bit better by the way, in fact, it makes me kinda mad! (another large sip) I don't want to fake my wedding pictures. That is sooo wrong to me. How do you recreate raw emotion?? I want a pic of me walking down the isle. I want Josh's expression captured the first time he sees me in my dress. You can't fake that! You can't recreate that! I want to see my real tears when I start crying like a baby on the alter (you know I will). I want to see my dad give me away. These pictures are supposed to capture my ceremony, not some creepy theatrical performance of it. (And please, don't let this offend anyone that may have, like my parents, and appaarently me, had to get their precious memories captured this way. These are my own personal feelings about my wedding....very emotional feelings right now, perhaps a teensy bit irrational. You be the judge. You have my full permission.)
I dunno ladies (or gentlemen), is this the norm? Am I doomed to "redo" my ceremony after the fact for the sake of my pictures? Do I suck it up and move on? Or do I start looking for a new minister, and new church? I do really love the church by the way. My girls were baptised there, thats the family church, and its very cute and "homey" feeling. Please help me!! Be the voice of reason....or outrage along with me ;) Thanks for listening!!